the unbalanced life

alarm goes off at 615am.  oversleep.  again.  get everyone up.  argue with 6 year old daughter about not wanting to wear a dress.  again.  make breakfast.  search for ONE missing shoe. grab backpacks.  get in car.  pray i don't kill said children before we get out of driveway.   take kids to school.  go to (Bible study/dr. appt./dentist/car dealership/grocerystore/mall/youfillintheblankfortheday).  try to squeeze in a run.  try to squeeze in a run.  clean up from breakfast.  laundry.  dishes.  plan dinner.  phone call returns.  email returns.  waste time on facebook.  waste time on twitter.  read honest toddler blog.  laundry.  clean house.  discover all kinds of things under kids beds.  very gross things.  things that have been there a long time.  decide to walk away.  laundry.   kids home from school.  snacks.  homework.  in car.  go to guitar lessons/football/baseball/gymnastics/church/Bible study/ect... home.  maybe dinner.  maybe not.  showers.  bed for kids.  Bible study lesson.  waste more time on facebook/twitter.  watch lame tv show. bed.  get up tomorrow and start all over!

SHEW!!!  everyone always says "it's all about balance!!"

Or is it??

i don't really know at what point that phrase started to kinda bother me.  but it does.  honestly, we could all add about 100 more things to our lists.  that was just a start really.  but everytime someone would say to me "you do too much.  you need to have balance", my insides started turning.  and then one day a thought came across my mind.

what does the Word say about balance?

hmmmmm.  hadn't really thought about it before.

and then the Lord brought a few simple verses to mind.

Love the Lord your God with ALL your heart and with ALL your soul and with ALL your mind.  (Matt. 22:37)  

So, because you are lukewarm-neither hot nor cold- I am about to spit you out of my mouth. (Rev. 3:16)

No one can serve two masters.  Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other.  (Matt. 6:24)

so, okay.  none of those verses say anything to me about "balance it all out".  in fact, it says just the opposite.  it says go all in.  go all in.

yes.  i understand that there is a difference in having too much "stuff" in our lives and just saying yes to everything.  and yes.  we have to be sure that what we say yes to is what the Lord wants us to have in our lives SO THAT we don't grow weary.

however.

when it comes to my love for the Lord, my love for others, and serving....

i choose to love the unlovable.
i choose to forgive the unforgivable.
i choose to be a friend to all.
i choose to go where He sends... willingly.
i choose to help restore lost dignity.
i choose to see people as people.
i choose to love hard.
i choose to hug that neck too long.
i choose to give a smile.
i choose to be a noticer.
i choose to offer my hand.. and get it dirty.
i choose to put my feet to the pavement, and get moving.

i choose to be a rebuilder.

balance is so overrated.

i'll just stick to the unbalanced life.